The Controversies of IVF

I wish that we could conceive naturally..but due to his low motility and count the chances of it happening are vey low. Being in the military, him wanting to get out in 4 years..we don't exactly have a lot of time. Not to mention he's 31, at 35 the sperm quantity starts declining. He doesn't have that much to begin with 7.5 million.

So now we're faced with opposing sides on IVF. I wish to do whatever it takes, he doesn't want IVF because it's not natural. Well if we can't conceive naturally then we really don't have a choice, if that is what it takes to get a pregnancy. Honestly, I don't want to have to go through this either. We're having the hardest time compromising on this situation. He says fine we'll go with it, but he complains about how expensive it is. The shit isn't going to be cheap, and it's not guaranteed to work. That's why I'm looking into the places that have a money back guarantee if it doesn't work. Or I'm considering donating eggs to help the cost too. He says that it couldn't hurt for me to get retested. Why would I get retested when my tests panned out just fine? If anything he should be getting retested because he was the one that didn't add up! Also, he wants to try for 6 more months when he comes back from Afghanistan. We've already tried for a year, not to mention I'm going to have to go a whole year struggling to cope with the fact that I'm not yet pregnant. The time to cut off trying naturally is coming soon, I'm NOT going to wait till the last minute to try to conceive. I won't.

This shouldn't be an argument but it is. I wish that he would be 100% supportive, and be there for me. Instead he has to be stubborn, hardheaded and feed me his negative opinions, or bitch about it. He says since I don't want to hear his opinions then he's done talking about it, and I shouldn't expect him to support me like I want. WTF? That's not 100% supporting me then. If he causes me this much stress and hurt when I undergo IVF then it won't take. Then he'll really be bitching about money going down the drain.

I know it sounds selfish but I feel like I should be the one to call the shots..seeing as I'm more responsible and motivated than him. Not to mention I'm the one who wants this more than anything, plus it will be a part of me. He is too optimistic, saying it will happen when it's meant to happen. If I let him take the reins then I'll be 35 by the time I have my first child or not have any at all.

I don't know, this whole situation just seems to get worse and worse. How far can I go emotionally and mentally in this dream? I often feel like I'm by myself in this.