I feel like I want to rip every last hair out of my head!

Seriously life, stop making me jump thru hoops to get what I want!!!

    So results are done on my husband's sperm analysis and he has a low sperm count. Greeatt. Like I specified we're going to have to have sex on the exact day I ovulate. In which I don't understand how it can take men with low sperm count longer to conceive when it only takes one sperm to fertilize an egg. Even when we've had sex on the right day, still nothing.

  I called my gyno's office to see if I can turn in the document and schedule an appointment to see if I can get on the Clomid. Of course I have one more test to go thru, but seeing as he's booked till March I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do. Waiting till March isn't an option, I don't have till March. Once I clear one hoop, now I got to figure out how I'm going to get thru the next one which happens to be on fire! WTF? Can I not catch a break?

Then in the back of my mind I'm still counting on this time to be it. This is just too much for me to handle right now.